A Word About Testing
For the umpteenth year, I am sitting in the coffee shop drinking my tea waiting for my kids who are taking the standardized test. In our state, we have to take tests every other year starting with 3rd grade. We do testing every year as we want our kids to be comfortable with the process long before it really matters in high school.
When my kids were younger, testing time was incredibly stressful for me. When they were testing, it felt like I was being tested and I didn't have any control over the outcome. I didn't sleep, I stress ate and I was a general mess. It felt like my entire worth and job outcome was in the balance. Now, however, I look forward to it. I get to sit and drink tea, read a book, and relax. Yes, relax. You heard me say it, relax.
I think there were a couple of realizations and events that changed my attitude about testing.
- It's just a momentary snapshot in time.
When the twins were in third grade, we got the test prep book, like I do every year, learned how to fill in the bubbles (because we don't ever do that in our homeschool), got the feel of reading the test book, made sure to read all the directions twice and check every math problem. The day of the test arrived and I hugged and prayed over my kids and went and proceeded to bite my nails for the next several hours. When I picked up my kids, they were ready for the after test ice cream and I asked how it went. Connor and Collin said they the thought they did fine and I asked Caileigh about her math test and she said in her little cute voice, " It was easy peasy, Mommy!" We happily went for our ice cream and I impatiently waited for the results. I got the results back and found that the boys did really well and I was very pleased. I opened Caileigh's test and all her LA and reading tests were very high and most of her math tests were great but then there was one at 18%. 18%? How in the world could that happen? I took a deep breath and called Caileigh. She bopped down the stairs with a smile on her face and then I asked in a non-smiling, irritated voice, "Caileigh what happened in your test?" Her sweet smile faded and she took a breath and replied, " I was bored with the test so I filled in the dots to make a pretty flower." Horrified, I asked, " Did you even read the questions?" "No, Mommy, I just made a flower." "A flower? You made a flower?" Her big brown eyes filled with tears and I was stunned by both the fact my daughter scored a 18% by just filling in the dots and that I had handled this all completely wrong. I had no words and I sent her to her room. I have had to spend many years undoing the damage I did in that moment. I had to come to realization that a test is just a small moment in time and the results can be changed by a whim (like making a pretty flower pattern), an upset stomach, a headache or even just uneasiness in the surroundings. That's all it is, a moment in time. It doesn't really test what they know, it tests how they test and regurgitate information. It has its place, but very little real weight should be placed on the results.
-A test or a grade doesn't define who you are.
My best friend tells a fantastic story about her mom and her brother. When the son was little, he struggled with reading and learning problems and came home with a failing report card. He was so sad and felt so dumb. Taking a look at her son's face, she took the report card and set it on fire out on the grill and looked at her son and told him, "A grade doesn't define who you are." That boy is now a Professor at a University in Arizona. I love that story, and those words have been what I have used to help undo the damage I did with Caileigh. I used those words with Connor when he had a panic attack right before the SAT's because he forgot his Scientific Calculator and we had to rush to get him a new one and it left him so flustered that he bombed the test. "This does not define who you are. This is a snapshot in time. You are a beloved child of God who is a genius with Computers, writes amazing piano compositions, a great teacher to underprivileged kids and well loved by your family. Not to mention you can take this test two more times. No sweat." Those tests also don't define who I am as a teacher. I am a beloved child of God, a well loved wife and mom and a hard working teacher who wants the best for her kids and my kids scores do not define who I am or even a good reflection on he job I am doing with my kids. They don't show my kids character, they don't show what great writers my kids are, they don't show the diligence my kids have when facing a hard math problem. They don't show how well my kids understand the cause and effect of history, or how deeply they understand their reading. They show how well and how quickly they can regurgitate information, just like Google or Siri can.
So why test at all then?
We test every year for several reasons. One, it trains my kids in how to take a test which is an important skill for high school and college. Two, it gives me a guide in picking curriculum and spotting weaknesses. If all of my kids were all lower in mental math then I can work on that. Sometimes, it shows that I need to spend a little more time focusing on punctuation. We realized with Connor that while he scored really high overall in everything, his pre-algebra skills were his weakest test. He passed AP Calc with flying colors but his lowest score was on fractions. So, we reviewed those before he went to college and have the twins doing more daily review of past topics. I use it as a tool to help me figure out their weak spots. That's all they are, a tool.
We have found that having academic goals each year and then working on tracking those goals each year are a much better litmus of how they actually are doing. It's also a much better litmus test on how I am doing as a teacher. Am I meeting their needs, shoring up their weaknesses and helping them soar in their strengths? Is my relationship with them strong? Can they take constructive criticism, am I teaching them diligence and perseverance? Am I helping them to meet their goals? Am I pointing them back to Christ? All of those questions are a far better test of my teaching ability than whether they picked out all the wrongly spelled words.ategories: parenting